Why Do I Even Bother Speaking?

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 14:41:14 GMT

so this is pretty much the first day in a long time where i have a couple hours to myself.

we recently moved in to our new house. seriously, it's my dream house. its amazing. and i couldn't ask for better room mates, or for anything different.

1337 menna st jacksonville fl 32205. so send mail, or presents, or just come over.

even though everything i have to do is done and i'm on track with everything i can't stop wanting to do more. i can't sit around anymore. i just get anxious and do things until i wear myself out.

i guess my goals for the next couple months is save some money to take a trip... and find a damn boyfriend. my instincts tell me that neither of these goals will be accomplished.

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 15:39:02 GMT

i've spent so much time today figuring out water/e;ectric, cable/internet, moving vans and all other ridiculous expenses. all i can think about is moving moving moving moving moving moving.
and i just did all of this a month ago.

being an adult sucks sometimes.

but i have everything to look forward to. alli and son will be reunited today if for only a brief moment.

in a few hours i'll be able to forget about money, tax, fees, installation fees, deposits, money money money and be 100% complete.

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 13:39:14 GMT

the springs.

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 14:36:43 GMT

it doesnt feel good to hurt people.

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 01:41:27 GMT

i got a new phone so leave me your phone numbers or call me

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 02:44:12 GMT

ever since the baby was born i've missed home terribly.

Tue, 02 May 2006 02:36:53 GMT

i'll be in plant city starting tomorrow night.

my time will consist of major hanging out, baby showers... alli... tampa.

call me if you want to hang out. i'll probably stay til sunday

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 16:33:58 GMT

it's my shin! about a foot long, still needs to be finnished. it's a cover up.

thanks stevie...!

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 00:28:17 GMT

IF YOU HAVE ANY EXTENDED FAMILY (GRANDPARENTS, AUNTS UNCLES, ETC) WHO GREW UP IN THE 30'S AND 40'S (OR AROUND THERE) IN APPALACHIA OR ANY OTHER FARMING AREA WHO WOULD BE WILLING TO BE INTERVIEWED FOR ONE OF MY CLASSES, PLEASE LET ME KNOW.

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 22:54:20 GMT

1st vegan hotdog served at tsi.

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 18:25:14 GMT

fainting repeatedly during animal collective sucks.

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 23:25:28 GMT

someone come hang out with me while im at home for a week.

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 18:47:09 GMT

hospitals suck. IVs suck.

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 20:29:54 GMT

im so fucking sick of consumers, and little girls with ugly leather bags that cost more than my rent, and people who need to try on four pants in a size whatever, and people who complain about CLOTHES, and customers that i see three times a week, and acting fake and always smiling and getting blown off and acting like i like these digusting fucking pigs.

i hate death. i feel so horrible today.

i cant understand why people are more concerned with how they look than the rest of life. i hate merchandise. i hate the mall. i hate my job.

people think about/do/say the lamest things.

i finally exploded today. im so damn tired and sick and sad.

i need some alli and dawn and the baby.

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 20:44:14 GMT

in PC today, is what i meant

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 15:23:04 GMT

in oc for tonight only.

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 15:09:34 GMT

rando.

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 15:08:09 GMT

girlz.

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 20:30:42 GMT

this is exactly how i knew it would be.

sometimes, i can predict the future.

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 20:59:44 GMT

so im in the library at school, and its a shitty day. and i had a conversation last night about where ive been and how i never stay in one place for long. i try to think of my past and i dont even believe i lived it. i had no idea i used to be on swim team or cheerleading. i dont remember the things that meant something to me in highschool. i have no idea whats going to happen to me tomorrow. anyway, i wanted to make a timeline. its out of order.

my bookshelf and unused desk. the wall.
my bed. my bed. my bathroom.
something id like to share with, someone. my favorite laundry mat.
new york.
i miss you jborg. happy birthday. two allisons.
jacksonville before i knew it! i love the smell of new tattoos
the worst summer ever.tampa.when i first met grandma.someone lame.agoraphobic nosebleed!next tattoo
nyc

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 20:47:13 GMT

a picture of the cat with brendon's christmas present to me.

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 20:02:51 GMT

mother fucking cock sucker i hate today.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 15:12:58 GMT

the pot luck went great. pictures soon. lots of food. and contacts! jacksonville is going to be home.

i finally found tyler last night. i feel better about it. he's ok. but he really isn't. so, as relieved as i am, i am also worried. i don't really know what to do.

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 21:13:47 GMT

tyler's gone. he's completely missing. last time i talked to him was a few days ago after he got out of the ER. now, his phone is disconnected. so i called his work and they said he hasn't shown up in two days.

i'm worried, and i wish i was closer to find out what's going on. even if he's been an asshole lately. i don't want to seem crazy and go find him. but it may be all i can do.

sucks.

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 21:09:22 GMT